You borrowed money that you never paid back.
You didn’t show up. You didn’t thank me. You didn’t keep your promise. You didn’t return the favor. You didn’t include me. You didn’t apologize.
You hurt me.
You rejected me. You talked about me behind my back. You forgot me. You judged me. You didn’t ask about me. You didn’t encourage me. You believed the worst about me. You didn’t love me.
I can’t stop thinking about it.
I’m furious. I’m depressed. I’m exhausted. I’m sick.
Every time the phone rings, an email comes in, or there’s a knock at the door, I think maybe you’re going to give me what you owe me. But you don’t.
23 “Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24 As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand bags of gold[h] was brought to him. 25 Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.
26 “At this the servant fell on his knees before him. ‘Be patient with me,’ he begged, ‘and I will pay back everything.’27 The servant’s master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.
28 “But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred silver coins.[i] He grabbed him and began to choke him. ‘Pay back what you owe me!’ he demanded.
29 “His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, ‘Be patient with me, and I will pay it back.’
30 “But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31 When the other servants saw what had happened, they were outraged and went and told their master everything that had happened.
32 “Then the master called the servant in. ‘You wicked servant,’ he said, ‘I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33 Shouldn’t you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?’ 34 In anger his master handed him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.
35 “This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother or sister from your heart.” (Matthew 18)
I have borrowed without paying back.
I haven’t shown up. I haven’t shown gratitude. I haven’t kept my promise. I haven’t returned the favor. I didn’t include you. I didn’t apologize.
I hurt you.
I rejected you. I talked about you behind your back. I forgot you. I judged you. I didn’t ask about you. I didn’t encourage you. I believed the worst about you. I didn’t love you.
I can’t stop thinking about it.
I’m so sorry. I hurt for how I made you feel. I want to repay you.
Forgive me.
Powerful and well said! Great job.
Thanks, TC. I love plagiarizing God, don’t you? 😉
I worked for the Jewish society for several years. I learned many things about them and their beliefs. I can’t remember the names of some of their meetings, but one day all of the managers and the rabbiis and teachers were put in a very large room. The managers were put to their backs to the walls and the Jewish teachers and some rabbis came to each of us and apologized for things that they had done to us. I had a rabbi apologize to me for saying to others that I could not not hold Alzheimer Groups effectivly because I had no relatives that had that disease. How they did it that day, was to say, “I would like to apologize,” It took me aback, because I had no idea that he had done that. Evidently it cleared his conscience as well as the rest of the group. I have never forgotten that.
Wow. That’s intense. I heard a radio pastor recently say that we should apologize to anyone we’ve said anything negative about. If you’ve said something nasty about me and I don’t know, PLEASE DON’T TELL ME. I forgive you. LOL
Mel, This is so good. I know I am guilty of looking out of the window rather than looking in the mirror. God’s way is just so much better. It’s the only way to know peace and joy. Thanks and Blessings!!
Yes, so why does holding a grudge seem so appealing? Thanks for commenting, Deb.
Hey sister Melanie!
WOW, did I ever feel your heart pouring out in this one! That was an exciting, writing. We are learning together sister to point our, pointy fingers back at ourselves, aren’t we? 🙂 Be encouraged, you’re seeking after the heart of God! Thanks for sharing! ~ Blessings, Amy
Thanks, Amy. That was definitely the case. 🙂 I wasn’t sure where the post was going when I started it, so it was kind of exciting for me, too.